Eulogy - Alyssa Burnside

My Creative Life Eulogy

The life of Alyssa Burnside is one of a simple dream. She grows up drawing and letting art guide her. Kids in her elementary class would often ask her to draw them their favorite cat since they thought she had an amazing talent. As life went on, she grew into ideas of what she wanted to be. A graphic designer was one, an animator for Disney was another and she finally stuck with a Game Artist. She loved playing games as a young girl. She was always fascinated by the artwork the game would have, especially video games. 

When she went off to college, her goal was to work hard and learn as much as she could about art so that she could fulfill her dream of becoming a game artist. After the first year of college, she went off on a mission for the Mormon Church. After a year and a half, she returned and found a wonderful young man to marry. They both went to college and were amazing artists. They both motivated each other and pushed themselves into success. After graduating from Snow College they both moved up to BYUI where they had their first child and continued to learn more about art. Alyssa was a stay at home mom while also finishing her Bachelors in Fine Arts. 

After college, she and her husband moved on to greater heights and started to work on their careers. Alyssa was able to work from home with a small game company. This gave her the chance to be with her children. She stayed with this company until her oldest was able to take care of the younger children. At this point, she moved to a bigger game company and was able to go in a few times a week to work. Once her children were all on their own, she started going into the company more often and bacame the one of the best game artists they had. 

Once her children started having kids, she retired so that she could focus more on her family. She continued to do her art in a more minor and at home way. She loved to paint and started to take it up again. She's wanted a study at home for years and finally, she was able to get one built in her home. Her children and grandchildren love coming to play and see grandma's artwork. She often would let them into her studio and create their own pieces of art. 

She continued like this until she died at the age of 95, happy as can be. 

Walking A Line - Alyssa Burnside

My Walking A Line

While Driving with my wonderful Boyfriend one beautiful day, an argument started. We normally fight about the stupidest things and we end up laughing about it afterward, but this fight was different.  It was still over something stupid, but we acted like it was the biggest thing in the world. We were so mad at each other that I could tell we needed some space. So, I told him to pull over and let me out. I wasn't very far from home, just a mile or two so it wasn't a big deal to me. He was glad to after I told him that he and I needed a break for the rest of the day.
We pull over and he lets me out. I didn't have much stuff with me other than my film camera so I started taking pictures on my way home. The road was pretty straight, so I just followed it home.

Persona - Alyssa Burnside

My Persona

Throughout the years I've traveled the world with my family and friends. I love to go hiking and biking around Europe. I love to work out especially outside in the environment. I spend my time taking pictures and working on my degree in photography. 

   

A Moment in Time - Alyssa Burnside

My Moment in Time

While standing in the snow listening and feeling, I came up with the words, cold, peaceful, quiet, inner warmth and happiness, spiritually connected. I used these words and decided to paint those feelings into this watercolor painting. The light blue background is where the cold is and the purple background is the inner warmth. The darker spots of blue that connect to the purple are spiritually connected and peaceful. The parts of the splotches that fan out and fade into the background are the quiet moments. The purple represents happiness. 

My Five Year Plan - Alyssa Burnside

My Five-year plan

Jessica Carbine student show submission

Jessica Carbine

well I submitted my meditation to the student show it didn't get in due to technical difficulties but I'm still glad I did it

Jessica Carbine Do It

 I chose the Feldmann, Hans-Peter homework (or do it yourself 1996) on pg.(159). basically for this project you were to choose a picture frame it and know as much about this person as possible it works best if your sure this person is dead.  I have chosen and framed my picture and I have made up some background information for her.

She died young leaving behind two little girls and a loving husband he was not her first husband and the two girls (Emily and Adelaide) were not his.She had been marries once before when she was young he was the father of the children but that marriage ended badly and she never saw her first husband. 

When she married her second husband they sought out a quite life and bought a cabin on a lake. She enjoyed her time there with her husband and her children and sometimes her other family would visit as well. 

She liked to take long walks out on the lake especially in the winter when the lake was frozen over. It was on one of these walks that she walked to far out on to the lake and fell though the ice and that was the end of her story and the beginning of a new one.

Jessica Carbine

Days 27-30 Mar, 15-18 Thursday-Wednesday

well this is my last journal entry post I think my math might of gotten messed up somewhere along the way because I thought I split up the pots more evenly than this but all well.

I did it I wrote in my journal everyday I feel like the project was a good success I found my self more reflective since doing this experiment and I actually look forward to writing in my journal each day. I liked this project and I'm going to keep writing in my journal as much as possible 

Jessica Carbine

Days 21-27 Mar, 7-15 Thursday-Wednesday

I decided to

I decided to try my chrysalis on my self so for this entry I'll be going over what I imagined in my chrysalis meditation

I imagined my garden as a big open clearing in the middle of an aspen forest, it had a small center with rose bushes and a fairy house then the rest of it open space with a lot of tall grasses and wild flowers.

My caterpillar was pretty typical it was green all over with orange spots along the spine and it was furry. I felt strange I wasn't exactly uncomfortable it just felt strange.

when I made my cocoon I felt like I was making a present for a friend and I wanted to make it just right then I realized it would be for myself and not a friend. I guess that means that I get caught up in helping others.

When I was inside my cocoon I like I was having a long night full of fit full sleep. I kept waking up and looking at the clock and realizing I still had a long time to wait until it was time to get up it felt like it would never end.

when I burst out of my cocoon it was sunset with the sun most of the way down. It was a beautiful sunset with lots of colors and I watched it while my wings dried. I looked in the mirror and I was a lunar moth I had big green wings with white trim and yellow speckles and I felt so accomplished and proud in my new form.

eulogy - ryan smith

This is a poem by Dylan Thomas, I know I didn't write it but its been my favorite poem since middle school...

Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

syyystem monologue over vocoder - ben sang

My roommate got a vocoder and I gave one of my syyystem monologues while he played chord progressions over a beat he made

https://soundcloud.com/brightsidebenj/syyystem-where

Low Blood Sugar Poster Mock Ups - ben sang

Jessica Carbine Chrysalis Meditation Script

Jessica Carbine

Chrysalis Meditation

Supplies list

• comfy inexpensive chairs or mats perhaps a big sleeping bag 
• Journals  communal and personal perhaps spiral binders 
• Pens 
• knowledge on symbolism and how to interpret  

welcome this is a guided group meditation

There is no right or wrong way to do this meditation

Your experience may be as vivid as you like or as simple as you like

After each section we will go around the circle and you may share your experience with the group if you wish. Then at the end if you wish we will go over your experiences and we will go over your experiences and I will help you to interpret them if you wish. 

Imagine yourself in a beautiful garden a garden you work hard to maintain you tending to all the flowers and plants.

•  Describe the garden, what dose the landscape look like?
• What kind of plants do you keep, do you have any favorites?
• What is the atmosphere of the Garden?
• The Garden represents the things in your life that have shaped you and the attributes that you want to nurture.
• I will now give you time to write about your meditation you may write in the journals provided so that your experience may inspire others or you may write in your own private journal. 

You feel yourself growing smaller and smaller your skin becomes ruffled you you feel a sense of change about to come upon you. You stop shrinking and find yourself on the leaf of one of your plants there is a mirror in front of you and you realize you are a caterpillar.

• Describe yourself 
• What plant are you on
• What color are you 
• How do you feel in this new form
• The caterpillar represents you in your current state. It represents the things you dislike in yourself.

You begin to eat and you fill yourself until you feel as though you are about to burst. Your skin begins to feel tight and uncomfortable, you realize it is time to change you can no longer be a caterpillar. You must become something more, so you begin to spin your chrysalis.

• What attributes do you add to your chrysalis that you feel you will need in order to fortify so it can protect you in the coming weeks
• What will you take with you into your transformation
• The chrysalis represents what makes you feel safe and what you want to see in your self 

You are in your chrysalis now describe how you feel

• Are you scared?
• do you feel safe?
• Is it dark?
• This represents how you feel in this transitional period 

Suddenly you can't take it anymore you feel you are done with your change and you burst out of your chrysalis tearing yourself free. The sunlight beats upon you warming you to your new form you are now transformed. Again you are faced with the mirror what do you look like now describe yourself?

• What are the colors that make up your wings?
•  If you a specific butterfly or moth what kind are you?
• Are you something entirely new meant for your eyes alone 
•  How do you feel now that you are done with your transformation?
• The butterfly or moth represents the kind of person you want to be. 

Now take a group opinion on how they felt about the meditation and ask if they would like to go over it.

Jackson Jenkins 5 year plan

goal setting ryan smith

My five year plan starts after I graduate with my BFA from USU. During those five years I hope to secure a job where I can sock away money to purchase property to rent out. This is a different procedure than residential property since I am making a living on running it. My plan is to acquire a space without taking out a mortgage since I will be unable to with my likely income, so I will have to purchase the property upfront and pay in full. An ideal space would be a warehouse or a house further from the downtown area where property costs would be cheaper. 

I plan to rent out the property to other artists in the area who are looking for a studio space, as well as use part of the space for my own work. I would spend the next year or so renovating

Jessica Carbine 5 year plan

Jessica Carbine

Go to southern Utah university

earn my bachelors over the next two years

Get back into symphony orchestra

join a guitar class and get better at guitar

continue making art by

getting better at sculpture

sketch every day

continue witting in my journal 

get an internship in graphic design or with the park service

use this internship to get in to a good career

get a part time job at a local coffee shop

use this to become more financially stable and get my own place  

save up money

go on a trip at least ounce a year

five year plan - ben sang

Nathan Adair - 5 Year Plan

My Five Year Plan :

I want to be in New York City at one of three schools. Juliard, New School of Music and Manhattan School of music.

DO IT Rylan Christensen

I hate the news but from time

Do It - Alyssa Burnside

DO IT

I smiled at a stranger today. I didn't know her, and I doubt I've seen her before, but I stopped and smiled at her. She was very pretty but looked a bit down for some reason. She walked along outside in the warmth of spring and I figured a smile from a stranger would maybe brighten up her day if only just a little bit. When she saw me smile she smiled back. her faced seemed to glow a little bit more when she smiled. I can tell I had cheered her up, if only a little bit. We kept on walking and passed each other without a word.  I don't think I'll see her again, but who knows.

do it - ben sang

This is my take on the Ricky instructions/poem:

A grid of twenty puncture marks in cardboard, all made with relatively the same motion and force, but slightly different shapes based on small variables. Each ricky mark is then individually named. Giving them names leads to personification and develops a layer of character to each mark.

At first I began naming them in order, but as specific names came to mind or certain shapes stuck out to me, I would name them accordingly. These movements in naming are recorded on the cardboard with arrows.

introspection pages - ben sang

Seeing Myself Corectly

so after the mediation I

did some brainstorming

meditation self introspection - ben sang

I am honest in my curiosity. I am in a constant process of discovery and distillment. My purpose is to my own purity that is in my core that every aspect of me yearns to embrace. I am almost constantly confused and exposed in my own efforts to contain and understand. I am the combination that the entire Universe has meticulously planned to organize for my purpose. I am the result of and the potential of infinity. I am the eternal point of now riding the crests of waves of sadness, happiness, despair, enlightenment, and every aspect in between. I am a language so ancient and pure that only the most fractional aspects have been translated into this existence and perception. I am lonely... and companionless, but not loveless. I am growing in every direction. I am trying my hardest. Sometimes it takes a lot for me to remember and slow down and become reacquainted with myself and my infinite place that I can only so finitely understand. I am creating a path that is also me. I am seeing in a fashion that is me. I want to learn to tactically feel in a way that is me. I am somewhere between - and at the same time encompassing of - my mind, spirit, and body. In learning to share this world I will be more capable of creating one anew. In new understanding and compassion, I will be able to expand. Sometimes I can feel myself evolving in my perception. Sometimes in excitement and sometimes in the warm, buzzing feeling where my teeth's roots meet the surface of my skull. I know this evolution isn't into new realms, but infinite, ancient, and external homes...

Jessica Carbine 30 day challenge 14-20

Jessica Carbine

Days 14-20 Mar, 1-7 Thursday-Wednesday

This week I'll be halfway though the thirty day challenge and this weeks dreams have actually been pretty good. I saw Into The Woods Thursday and really enjoyed it so I think that sparked my imagination. Not all of them were really noteworthy but I had three that I enjoyed and wrote more than usual about. The most interesting of them was a dark reinterpretation of Beauty and the Beast, just to be clear it wasn't the Disney version it was just my imagining of the old fairy tale. I've been on a fairy tale kick lately, reading allot of story book retellings' such as Beauty, East and The Goose Girl series not to mention the play I went to, so it's no wonder I dreamed this.
One more thing before I start, I was't in this dream, it wasn't about me at all, which is't uncommon for me I'm not in most of my dreams.

In the dream Beauty was to late to save the Beast from his curse. By the time she got there the flower had long ago died and the Beast had been driven mad by the hopelessness and despair of having to remain a beast forever alone.

My dream began much like the old story Beauty lives with the Beast and he tries to court her but the castle is not beautiful its dark and grey and its falling apart there is also feeling of foreboding so she doesn't fall for his tricks. Because the spell can no longer be broken the servants who were invisible in the old story, are free to show themselves to Beauty and she befriends them.
One Day while Beauty is exploring because the castle is falling apart she falls through the floor to the deepest part of the castle. There she finds a dungeon filled with young women like herself who couldn't break the curse and tried to escape, so the beast locked them up. The servants find Beauty and help her escape but she decides she can't leave the women of the servants behind so she returns to the castle.
Once Beauty is back at the castle she confronts the Beast and tries to talk to him but he attacks and tries to kill her for escaping. The Beast sets his own castle on fire and Beauty and the Beast fight while the castle is burning around them. Beauty kills the Beast out of self defense and is able to set everyone free before the castle burns down. I woke up as she was journeying back to her home.

Jessica Carbine 30 day Challenge 7-13

Jessica Carbine

Days 7-13 Feb, 22-28th Thursday-Wednesday

I didn't have to many interesting dreams this week, I thought after Saturdays dream I would have more interesting dreams. A lot of the dreams felt interesting but I only remembered bits and pieces and I had a hard time accurately remembering the sequence of events enough to form a cohesive dream. My biggest problem is when I wake up form a dream its often in the middle of the night or early in the morning so I go right back to sleep and I forget the dream I woke up from. This makes it hard to remember my drams even if I really liked them but I'm going to try and write them down as soon as I wake up no matter how tired I am. After all I've made my self write in my journal every night so far.

Jessica Carbine 30 Day Challenge Days 1-6

Jessica Carbine


30 day challenge days 1-6

I am going to gage allot of my project through out 30 these days on what kind of dreams I have and how memorable they are. As I said in my introduction many of my dreams have become unmemorable and sleeping has become a chore. When I was writing regularly this wasn't the case, so one of my hopes in writing more is to have more enjoyable dreams and maybe even gain some control over my dreams since most things I've read on the subject of lucid dreaming say writing down your dreams is the best way to claim control of them. I am also going to post in 6 day intervals because 6 is easily divisible by 30, every 6 days I have a summery of my week so if I don't get to post every week I can still be accurate with my postings.

Days 1-6 Feb 15-21 Thursday-Wednesday

This first week I couldn't really allot of my dreams most of them were just feelings, or the events in them were so scattered I couldn't make sense of them, but it wrote down what I could. I found that if I actively tried to remember my dreams I couldn't remember them at all, but if I relaxed and took a passive approach to recalling my dreams I could at least remember the jist . I wasn't expecting much this was my first week after all. So I was surprised when  on Saturday I actually had a dream worth writing about.

It was sort of a lucid dream I was tired and couldn't sleep but I manged to dose a bit so I still felt a little consensus in this dream. I dreamed about my Grandmas  house, I grew up in that house because my grandma needed to be taken care of early on so form age 6 on we just lived with her. Memories of that house are still very precious to me. When I was 14 my Grandma died and due to some unfortunate events the house was taken by the city and demolished there is nothing left now. This event still haunts me in more ways than I can explain, so I tried not to think about it much.
In the dream the house was still whole I went through every inch starting from the basement of it remembering the feel of the carpet and the furniture and the comfortable clutter. I remembered the smell of the fireplace and the pictures on the wall along with the murals my mom painted, in my room, in the kitchen and on the doors. I also remembered the yard and its surrounding all the trees I used to climb and the creek I would play in. It was comforting but, I knew it was a dream which made me sad, for the past few years I have had this intensest feeling of home sickness and I guess I always will but that dream helped me think about it in a different light.

Singing assignment

For this assignment we decided to play out a five note chord where we each matched a note with our voices. We recorded samples of our voices and looped them to create note samples for 7 minutes, and played it on a phone speaker in the atrium.
The sound was actually a lot harder to listen to for seven minutes than we originally thought, you can hear everyone in the background and one eventually turned the volume down.

video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6JjpSz7p-7Q&feature=youtu.be

Sensory Deprivation - Alyssa Burnside

This is my Sensory Deprivation Project

Over the winter holidays, I had the opportunity to participate in a taste test with my family. My parent's had gotten a box of different root beers from the store for us to try. The goal was to taste and then guess which root beer it was.
However, due to expenses and timing, I wasn't able to recreate that experiment. So, I change it up to fit my budget better. I went to the store and bought off-brand sodas and on brand sodas for my Boyfriend and his two young brothers to try.
We started this experiment at around 8-9 o'clock at night and didn't finish until around 11. The fact that this was done at night when they were tired made this experience really fun. They joked around a lot and were being their normal selves, just a little more hyper than usual due to the lateness of the day and the amount of sugary soda they've drunk.
The soda's I used were as so:
1.Mountain Lightning (Off brand of Mountain Dew)
2. Dr.Pepper
3.Twist Up (Off brand of 7Up)
4. Sam's Cola (Off brand of Coca-cola)
5.A&W Root Beer
6.Root Beer (Off brand of A&W Root Beer)
7.Mountain Dew
8.7Up
9.Dr.Thunder (Off brand of Dr.Pepper)
10.Fanta
11. Coca-Cola
12.Organette
The video is shaky in some parts, so don't be alarmed. I didn't use a tripod.

https://youtu.be/yc9uNT5ihhE

a set of instructions " couldn't remember if I posted or not "

Jessica Carbine 30 day challenge day 1

30 Day Challenge 

For my 30 day challenge I have decided to write in my journal everyday, I want to write more in general and I will but for the purpose of this challenge I'm going to focus on writing in my journal because it's easy to track and its also very versatile because I can write about anything I want in an in depth personal manner. 

I use to write all the time in jr high and high school, I wrote about all kinds of things and when I did I had these really amazing vivid dreams that would cause me to write more, my ideas just flowed so freely. 

After high school I guess I just went into hyper drive because I wanted to do well in college and I had to work to pay for college and I stopped writing. The vivid dreams stopped too and sleep became just another chore, my ideas feel like a wellspring that is running low.

My friend gave me a journal for Christmas, its a beautiful present with a heartfelt letter on the inside and it would be a shame  not to use it. I believe that if I begin writing again things will change and I will feel better.

Jessica Carbine sensory deprivation

Sensory Deprivation 

I couldn't find an exact statistic but I've herd it said that smell is at least 70% smell. So for my sensory deprivation I decided to test this statistic but I didn't want to do it alone. 

I gathered together some food, chopped up apples oranges, potato and I also backed cookies. Potato are similar to apples in texture so I wanted to see if people could tell the difference, Oranges have a very distinct smell to them which plays into there taste making them perfect for this experiment, then finally I baked cookies because I wanted to see if something so familiar could become unfamiliar if I took away its smell.

I got my stuff together along with some nose plugs and blindfolds and went to class, ounce there I had every body put on a blindfold and nose plugs, I uncovered the food and told everyone to begin. 

The results were hilarious I wish I had video taped it people were so disoriented about which food was what and it was so great seeing their reactions. Ben was startled by a piece of  orange he exclaimed "Ahh Its wet", Nathan Jackson and Ryan all got stuck with potatoes and none of them could figure out quite what it was. 

The most recognizable thing was the cookies because of their sweetness, the oranges were almost tasteless only recognizable by their texture, the Apples were a little more recognizable but people still got them confused with the potatos. It was fascinating and fun to see everybody's reactions and I'm glad I decided to share this experiment with the class.  

Jessica Carbine Resource list

Resource list 

imagination 

creativity 

music

bed 

blankets 

books 

backpack 

outside pack 

binders 

Sketchbooks past and present 

Car 

Camera 

film Camera

film 

computer 

clay 

clay tools 

cats

Drawing supplies 

dog  

parents 

siblings 

friends 

swimming ability 

swim suit

good sense of direction 

guitar

violin 

hiking boots 

mental map 

school studio 

school library 

peers

Teachers 

pocket tools

earphones

Trying to hard at the first of the thirty days

so I wanted to do a simple digital drawing very day to help me learn how to finishing things and het faster but this was not working for me I have to simply in order to draw every day I have to learn how to make things easier on my self

Walking a line

as related to the previous a moment in time project I ran some of my old running roots around Ephriam and i would remember some pretty upsetting things so I took a few pictures of what memories where recalled

Photo 1

Rotoscope 1

A moment in time..... again

so for this project I wanted to show or illustrate rather an up setting memory in my life that was upsetting so I did some research found a good reference and tried out some new digital painting techniques.

the Reference I found 

the penciling

the ink layer

some painting progress

Divine stress

gesture drawing - ben sang

When we are somewhere, we take in more just one plane of view. We are surrounded completely and the surroundings heavily impact our focus. We are constantly creating different kinds of gestures that we are aware of as well as those that we are unaware of. The external factors of our environment oftentimes become the stimulus for which of our many gestures we are especially attentive to at the time. I wanted to experiment with the idea of a gesture through my own various interactions to an environment while including the environment itself in the gesture.

In order to do this, I wanted to go somewhere that served as a location with a view or one that would be considered to be an outlook. After deciding on the top of the college's football stadium bleachers, I used a 360 degree camera to taking in the surroundings that I was most immediately aware of. Where was my head and body moving? What was I paying attention to? How was I positioned? With each repetition I focused on small gestures of my own that I wanted to focus on. These gestures varied from taking in the a view in general to constantly keeping my eyes down for fear of making eye-contact with anyone that might be able to see me standing or sitting far above them making weird motions with my phone.

I wanted to organize different gestures in a way that would make them all follow the same two formats: place, and relative dimension. Using the 360 degree created neat stripes.

What I find most interesting about these images is that depending on the gesture being carried out, the images become quite wildly abstract despite being achieved in the same way.

Gestural Painting - Alyssa Burnside

This is my Gestual Drawing

A simple gesture that I seem to do every day for different reasons is pacing. I don't know why I pace except that it helps either with relieving stressing, thinking about stuff or releasing energy build up. In my painting, I used different colors to symbolize the different times that I pace and the emotion that I feel when pacing. 

Black=Anxiety, worry, and depression
Light Blue=thoughtful

Red=Stressed

Orange=Excitment

By using my own feet as the painting tool and my emotions to guide me, I mixed the paint I wanted to use with water to help make it more liquidy providing splatters to the parts where I felt more emotional about something. 

Why did I do this though? Well, I wanted a piece of my art to be related to me. I wanted to show the kind of emotion that I feel every day and by using a simple gesture that I use to help cope with these different emotions, I feel like I can connect more with my audience. 

I worked on this project while actually feeling these different emotions. Whether that's thoughtful or exciting and energetic.