THIS IS A TRANSFORMATION: March 2023

Monday, March 27, 2023

Sunday, March 19, 2023

My Persona - Lucía Rodríguez

THIS IS MY PERSONA.

IT IS ME.

WHAT I WOULD LIKE TO BE, WHAT I LIKE TO DO AND WHAT I WILL BE.

THE SECOND PHOTO ARE SOME OF MY WORKS I WOULD DO AS A PHOTOGRAPHER. TAKING PHOTOS OF WHAT I LIKE AND WHAT I THINK IS interesting.

A quick warning for some scary images, flashing lights, and naked body (not actually naked nor does it have the actual parts of a woman just the general shape with x's on top. Tho it's important to know if your not comfortable with it)

What inspired me:

This persona is supposed to be my intrusive thoughts as a person. It is heavily inspired by Ena which was created by Joel G. I have started therapy but since the last two years I have been dealing with bad intrusive thoughts. I originally tried making them stop by either gently shaking my head to the side, tapping my head, or holding onto myself. Slowly this has turned into me hitting myself full on, jerking my head to the side, or grabbing/scratching thankfully not to the point of injury. It scares me each time I do it and I don't wish to do it. My therapist described it perfectly as it being compulsive. The only thing that was helping stop it before therapy was being around others. The anxiety of I can't do it here or else others will worry made it so I don't often do it in public. Thankfully I am going to start getting help for it but I thought this project would be a good way to express this thing since I often try to hide it.

Character info:

This is alarm. Alarm is a humanoid shadowy figure that has two blocky hands that control their arms at random times. they are often seen crying unless their thoughts are projected. When that happens their eyes become staticky and expression blank. This is the only time they won't be crying. Overall they are rather shy and reserved. When a thought is going to appear they become panicked and try to get away from those around them so they don't see. The blocky hands during thoughts will grab onto the arms and control them making Alarm do things they don't want to do. Once a intrusive thought has reached its peak the hands will grab the thought from the head and project it for everyone to see. A different version of Alarm will appear and show the thought on a screen. This thought version of Alarm is more chaotic and carefree. They talk very similarly to a game show host and will try to convince the person watching that this thought was made by Alarm and that they wish to do it. Alarm afterwards will try to deny the accusation clearly distraught. Alarm would probably be in the Ena universe chasing down the great runas to wish for their thoughts to go away.

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